What do you want?

I have been uncertain of late. What do I do next? What avenue do I pursue? What type of work "should" I do? What type of work do I want to do? I have acres of notes about any and all of the above, every conceivable approach to decision making, skills-building, passion-vs-logic approaches you could imagine.

Then a word of advice came my way at just the right time. Harry Cott sagely reminded me that "Remember, when you're confused you're just about to learn something!". Wise words that I had forgotten amidst my excited confusion.

He had read my most recent altMBA post about trying to find my way and feeling a little lost.

The TL;DR on that post is "Im genuinely happy and have a good life, but Im underused in this world. I want to fix that."

Harrys thought made me think of how I could possible reframe the situation. You see, I had been going at it in circles, swirling around thinking that I was knowledgable but trapped. I had tried different avenues, nothing was working. The problem did a "negative reframe" on me, and went from being a problem of professional/life direction, to just a "problem". Whats strange about "the problem" is that it is in itself comforting. Trying to attack "the problem" over and over is a frustrating fight, but at least it’s a fight I know. "The problem" causes ever-present uncertainty, one that spreads, and that doesn't help.

Or does it. I realised that uncertainty creeping in also opened the door to the possibility beyond it. In the same way that certainty can be dangerous, squashing all fresh thought and growth, uncertainty can allow a certain freedom of thinking, a new mindset that anything is possible. This really helps.

This leaves me with 3 things to think about:1) What if I failed?2) What if I did nothing?3) What if I succeeded?

If I'm not moving up, I'm falling down.